The sheer waste of time is horrible and is driving me insane. When there is a lack of work it gives the mind ample time to think and perhaps one of the greatest curses of being human is the curse of being able to think. Given due thought everything is questionable and doubtful. Suddenly things arent clear anymore. Is it worth it to take on a career that involves people when I seem to have little interest in people and is it wise to ignore the financial aspect of it all considering that life seems to be highly dependent on money. Aargh! It feels like my head is running in different directions and doesn't know where it wants to go.